My girlfirend broke up with me earlier on sunday. I am a mess, I can't sleep, eat, I haven't felt like this in a long time. This week has been hard. I guess what makes it even harder is that she didn't even give me a reason why. And get this, she broke up with me by TEXT MESSAGE! She sent a text message to my cell phone! I can't understand it. This is a woman that I honestly thought was the one for me. Seriously. I have never felt like this about anyone before, ever! I am so depressed I can't even think striaght. Have you ever been so depressed that it makes you feel drunk? I haven't had a sip of anything and I swear I could've swallowed a liter of gasoline. Why do women change after you fall in love with them? I can't understand it. I opened up to her completely. I was planning my entire life with her and then a complete turn around. I have to perform this week in Colorado and I was supposed to go see her in Michigan next week. Maybe that was it. I had told her I wasn't going to be able to afford it. I planned everything with her. Kids, our home, our entire future. Fuck, I can't believe this. And again I did what I was supposed to do. The only thing I could think of is that she met someone and fell for him. Long distance relationships are hard. I keep thinking about her. Why, what happend? She must've been sleeping around and got caught up with him. Fuck this shit, I'm going for a walk. I can't stand this.